Small Spiral Notebook - Vol.3 Issue 2 - (Page 19)

Warning : session_start : The session id contains invalid characters, valid characters are only a-z, A-Z and 0-9 in /mnt/data/www.nxtbook.com/fx/config_1.3/global.php on line 9 Warning : session_start : Cannot send session cache limiter - headers already sent output started at /mnt/data/www.nxtbook.com/fx/config_1.3/global.php:9 in /mnt/data/www.nxtbook.com/fx/config_1.3/global.php on line 9 Warning : Cannot modify header information - headers already sent by output started at /mnt/data/www.nxtbook.com/fx/config_1.3/global.php:9 in /mnt/data/www.nxtbook.com/fx/config_1.3/global.php on line 10 BETSY AARON 19 by BETSY AARON CARETAKING Situations-Wanted Ad: Non-abstemious agnostic wants to live like Agnes Martin—but not during that spell when she had to work as a dishwasher. I’ve already done the shit jobs: picking out pubic hairs from motel bathtubs, selling marked-down bras and girdles to jumbo-size women, working overtime for coke fiends who used the business of documentary film production for cover. What interests me is that Agnes sought out situations of solitude without letting society shame her. She had a mother and a father in Saskatchewan who must have dreamed of a different life for her—don’t parents want their children to marry and make grandchildren? But she was unaffected by their, or anyone else’s, desire. Her work bears no trace of outside influence— and yet while so many people grow sad with age, the older Agnes became, the more her happiness grew. She was able to cultivate an untroubled mind, and isn’t that what we both want? Perhaps you have purchased a nice spread on the outskirts of Taos but these days you find yourself dividing your time between Topanga Canyon and the co-op in Gramercy Park. When I’m not in town comparing her site-specific paintings with an afternoon framed by skylight, I can be infusing your house with serenity and daydreams. Or maybe your estate is in the Hudson Valley, not Agnes’s terrain, but a radiant place that would suit me fine. What I seek is the hum of your house; let me love it for you in your absence. Are you a collector? Don’t let outcomes of inspiration die—yes, a tree falls in your woods whether you are there to appreciate the dappled light it made or not, but according to Agnes, paintings live through the energy of observation, and in this activity I have expertise. I’m not promising that I’ll dust off your bookshelves, but your first editions will be enriched by my close reading. While you are anchored off the coast of Portofino, I can be harvesting your heirloom apples. You won’t return to find a freezer filled with homemade strudel, but perhaps this year the deer Warning : Unknown : The session id contains invalid characters, valid characters are only a-z, A-Z and 0-9 in Unknown on line 0 Warning : Unknown : Failed to write session data files . Please verify that the current setting of session.save_path is correct /var/lib/php/session in Unknown on line 0

Table of Contents for the Digital Edition of Small Spiral Notebook - Vol.3 Issue 2

Table of Contents
Roundabout by Mia Alvar
Caretaking by Besty Aaron
Wonder Woman Grew Up in Nebraska by Sarah Gerkensmeyer
Nightshade - an Excerpt by Susan Y. Chi
Dumpster Tuesday by Scott Snyder
Last Resort by Nova Ren Suma
Five-and-Dime Valentine by Felicia Luna Lemus
The New Children by Kira Henehan
Get Away, Little Man by Brian Joseph Hurley

Small Spiral Notebook - Vol.3 Issue 2

https://www.nxtbook.com/nxtbooks/NXTbook/smallspiralv3i2
https://www.nxtbookmedia.com