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making sure my two little humans
feel happy, safe and loved. Do you
know how difficult that is to do when
you don't always feel those sentiments
yourself? It's like an uphill battle.
The common saying "you can't pour
from an empty glass" rings so true...
except sometimes it's as if I am trying
to pour into a gallon sized jug from
a measuring teaspoon. The feeling is

all consuming. Add in the constant
worry of having a first-responder
husband who continues to do his
job during this scary time? Not the
best combination for someone whose
mental state is already hanging on by
a frayed piece of dental floss.
How do I get past these feelings?
By learning to trust my instincts. I've
learned so much about myself since

January of 2019. Have I always had
anxiety? Yes. Did cancer increase that
anxiety tenfold? Yes. Is this global
pandemic flaring it up again? Absolutely. Have I strangely gotten better
at taking long, deep breaths and trying to judge whether or not to panic
about something? Strangely, yes. I am
trying my best to live in the moment
rather than focus on the fear of what
may come. To focus on the things that
I CAN control, rather than the things
that are out of my hands. I am trying
to not worry about things that I don't
have to yet. I am trying to quiet the
demons in my mind and improve my
mental health by reminding myself
that I am, in fact, one of the lucky
few that gets to call myself a survivor.
There isn't a course that helps explain life after cancer. There's no
guidebook telling you how to feel
and how to go about your day-to-day,
post-cancer life. No one tells you that
survivorship will feel this way. I think
everyone assumes that treatment
ends and *POOF* life is back to normal. I am here to tell you firsthand
that that is not true. I am here to tell
you that if you are also feeling this
way, you are not alone. I am here to
tell you that although these times are
scary, we WILL get through them.
Although this storm is stirring up so
many familiar emotions, we will find
our way out of it. Every step of this
journey is teaching us something new
about ourselves. Like we have already
learned, coming out the other side of
this crazy time will prove that we are
stronger than we realized we were.
It will prove that we will rise once
again. It will prove that we have a lot
more living left to do. l
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JUNE 2020

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