Dear Cancer... IN THE WIDE-OPEN AIR Dear Cancer, Sometimes, in the dark, I whisper the things I am most afraid of. The make it or break it things. The Do you ever feel that way?s and the Do you know what I mean?s The phrases whose answers I am most afraid to hear but also the phrases I need to get out of my head where they won't fester. Out where their power wanes as air sifts in between their cracks and into their crannies. They don't look so big anymore in the wide-open air. - Mallory COLD Dear Cancer, I am so far from the me who sat in that chair cold and so afraid. But so so so cold. Blankets weren't enough to keep the heat in my bones so I shivered there for four long months and tried to imagine a fu-ture where warmth and ease were mine to keep all day long. Always. Forever. - Mallory CACTUS CANCER SOCIETY MALLORY IS A 2X HODGKIN LYMPHOMA SURVIVOR AND BEREAVED CAREGIVER. SHE IS THE CO-FOUNDER AND CEO AT CACTUS CANCER SOCIETY WHERE SUPPORTIVE PROGRAMS ARE OFFERED ONLINE TO YOUNG ADULTS FACING CANCER. 42 ELEPHANTSANDTEA.COM JUNE 2022http://www.ELEPHANTSANDTEA.COM